from here to there

i remember shitting my pants
in nursery school
in front of everyone.

i remember aaron palmer
vomiting on the carpet
in social studies
in second grade
sloppy joe's
evacuating porously

i remember a cool autumn
breeze careening
over
my penis.

i still remember the phone number
of my first
girlfriend: 626-0609.

i remember making out
for the first time
with an amputee.

i remember making a god's eye
from dreary colored
frayed yarn.

i remember peanut butter
and jelly
tasting inconsistent.

i remember my twenty-fifth
birthday in a studio
loft getting high
alone eating
noodles with green pepper
and onion powder.

i remember hoping
i know how to
fall in love
again
when the moment comes.